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so we wait

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so we wait.
even the time we don’t think we’re waiting
we come to find out we were
working while ultimately waiting for work to matter
hoping while ultimately waiting for hope to count for something
dreaming while ultimately waiting for dreams to come true
praying while ultimately waiting to see if praying works somehow.

and every now and then,
we are honest enough with ourselves
and maybe one or two other people
to profess that we are actually
just waiting
while we work, hope and dream
we are really just waiting
with breath tied up tight
in the back of our stomachs or
in the front of our backs
waiting
to see
to feel
to know
to believe

that what we’ve waited for
is true after all.

not even true, sometimes.
just possible.

there’s courage and bravery in waiting.
whether we admit that’s what we’re doing or not.

djordan
Pine Tree

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with our necks on the line

MARCEL MOULY "La Vague d'Etrave II"2003

In all the complexities
we hold out hope
that we are thinking
and choosing
and doing well.

but we do not know, of course, if we are.

In all the dramatics
we hold out hope
that we are acting justly
being filled with mercy
and taking steps with humility.

but we fear, of course, that we are not.

Yet even in our unsureness
the tasks wait
the issues wait
the choices wait

injustice waits
cruelty waits
arrogance waits

and we cannot stall
until we feel we are sure enough to move
because work
and lives
and hope is on the line.

So we hold our breath
and step into the unknown
and act and choose and do
our best attempts at
justice and love and mercy
hoping we have chosen well
while willing either way to put our necks on the line
to have acted.

djordan
Pine Tree

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telling secrets

after you’ve been holding your breath

for a long time

you tell the truth.
you tell the truth into the fear.
you tell the truth into the sadness.
you tell the truth into the ear of a trusted other.
you tell the truth into the ear of a knowledgeable other.

and light floods in
and breath fills up your lungs
and hope crashes into the landscape

and the one you told
now able to tell

and light floods in for them
and breath fills up their lungs
and hope crashes into their landscape

together we discover our humanity
in telling secrets, in telling the truth.

only in community.
we are a community of secrets.

only in honesty.
we are a community capable of honesty.

and the truth sets us free. together.

djordan
Pine Tree

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